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EgoAs you shed a tear of sorrow,
My eyes cast full attention
And a hundred more did follow
Useless efforts of yours to hide
A broken soul becoming obvious
To people living their dreams
Your fallen self was being envious
Your exhausted thoughts cannot remember
The way you lived your life before it shattered
You cut yourself when you pick up the pieces
For fear of errs spread out from voices
Sometimes I try to find a way to help you
Your downcast mind and faded wishes
You lost all that you lived for
And you don't know yourself anymore
Not so long ago I laughed at your position
Make fun of you for what you have become
I pushed you deeper down destruction
Til' your ways are of the lonesome
But then I rendered voiceless
When the truth embraced me
Acceptance broke the silence
Knowing you are me
Now, repentance is above me
The things I've done, I wish to undo
I should have stopped when I had to
I've hurt myself when I hurt you
ShackledThis concealed hurt makes me ask why
Things are not the same
When did the pain began
And all the happy hopes have gone?
Every second I'm losing my grip
On the only thread that saves me
A fragile line built of lies
Which my life and innocence denies
A sense of numbing emptinnes I've felt
Where a few thousand tears I've wasted
For broken promises and shattered smiles
Sprouting out from weakness nested
Once lucent dreams and aspirations
Became a refuge from unholy sorrows
Days have darken from its normal
Diabolic thoughts are immortal
Now I'm running around in circles
Pathless and confused
Why do I keep on living
Through the shadows of mistakes I keep on doing
My placid state of mind have ceased
Storms of fear devour thoughts
What must I do to stop the torment
This is not what I have sought
The pathhas darkened but I still breath
Casting faded silent whispers
When will this end, I've been longing
Cleanse my soul and see the light of the sunny morning
DesolationThey don't know what lies within, they can't feel this inner sorrow;
For what is shown are always smiles, all of which are nothing more but hollow;
I did more than great in masking my torment, feeling fine when everything's not;
Carefree, happy and at ease, but they don't know I'm all I got;
I fell, I lost, again and again, with no one there to lift my soul;
Tears and fear are my companion, through my darkest days without direction;
Lucky am I for having my family, unfortunate them for having me;
I failed them then, I failed them now, unrepayable by a million sorries;
Time pass by and I'm still here, pointless with lost emotions;
Maybe it's too late to save my doom, I'm close enough to self-destruction;
With no one keen enough to see behind these eyes, I'm the best actor I can be;
But if altering fate finds its way to me, I'd be someone else but me...
My EclipseLife was great, as young as I
Just fun and games on sunny days;
Ever joyous, problem-free
But gone are those days
I learned, I showed, I shined
Celebrated and bruised with praise;
I was best at all I do
But gone are those days
I dominated, reached the top
A winner with my devious ways;
I made a name, one can dream
But gone are those days
Then came blowing the winds of change
And a new wave has begun;
And everything from up to down
And all I had was gone
Now living through perpetual torment
Errs and failures come to haunt;
Praying, wishing for the day
When all of these are gone
Nervous MovementYou're a dime a dozen in a sea of billions.
Individuality has no significance in numbers so vast.
And while this fact makes looking forward hard
we can't keep living in the past.
You're a nervous movement in a freeze frame scene.
Steady hands won't help hold up such a fragile act.
And while you take your time keeping character
you fake what you can't take back.
With nothing more than a thought we form our actions
and this is where we extinguish the lie they tried to invent.
The lie that we painted our lives without passion
well conclusions are useless with no attempt to commence.
You're a song I can't name stuck in my head.
I've listened to you before and probably will again.
And while I can hum the melody all day long waiting
for it to hit me I still won't know where you've been.
You're a gust that has never changed direction.
Nothing can touch you you're only felt as you brush skin.
And while you can't be stopped nothing lasts
nothing escapes time not even the wind.
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